Death Has Always Made Me Cry

Death has always made me cry,

Whether it be because of the tragic loss experienced by others,

Or the friend or family shaped hole in my life,

Or its fictional representation in art,

Or even its lack when beloveds are reunited,

Death has always made me cry.

I met you once, Dark Spectre,

You allowed me to return and rebuild my self anew,

But that does not excuse the pain

You have continued to cause us all.

Death is but a passage,

A next step on an immortal journey, Or a cessation of all things, the reader may say,

Whatever it is to those who go, it is pain and tears to those who are left behind.

Death has always made me cry,

But I will be strong,

I will hold on to the joy of having known you,

The joy of the fond memories that will keep you alive forever.

A shining star in my personal firmament.

Death has always made me cry

And I have known loss over the years,

But those losses do not compare

To the ones I experience now, as I have aged,

And my friends begin to die,

From regular, tragic life-ending woes.

Before they were mentors, role models, acquaintances, family friends,

Now they are true friends, chosen family members, siblings of my heart.

I cherish you all the while I cry for your absence.

I hold on to the pleasure of having known you.

We will ring the bell for you today.

In love.

In remembrance.

In tribute to your part in our lives or of those we love,

And I will cry at your name.

The bell will toll,

And I will say farewell.

The bells will peal,

And my joy at having known you will explode from my heart,

For all to see and feel and know you through.

But I will still cry at your names.

Death has always made me cry.

Hattie Quinn

October 15, 2017

Good Works After Bad

My short story, “Good Works After Bad,” which did not place in last year’s Writer’s Digest Short Story Competition, finds new life in the April 2017 issue of poetic diversity, the online poetry zine of Los Angeles.

http://poeticdiversity.org/main/index2.php?date=2017-04-01

Find me in the prose section.

Thank you to to the editor for including me!

Writing Troubles

Nothing points out an author’s dependency on a particular word like a narrator who pronounces it different than the reader. 

grimuh s versus gri-meys

Update Q1 2016 e.v.

I had a beautiful baby boy!  He is the joy of my life and the bane of my schedule. 

  
In February, I failed to win the Writer’s Digest flash fiction competition with my piece entitled “Works”.   I have since submitted to the online litzine poeticdiversity where my poem “Weather Madness” previously appeared. 

During Women’s History Month I was featured in the Facebook of the editor as a kickass female writer, or something to that effect. Yay. 

Last month I also started a home cooking blog hattiescooking.com. Check it out if you are interested in learning to cook, gambling new recipes, discussing technique, or learning a little bit more about me everyday. 

Preview of Q2:

This month I am proofreading a short piece called “The Proposal” by Endymion St. Cyr and researching a scifi short story for submission to an upcoming anthology of female scifi authors. 

I hope to do some editing of existing pieces for submission or self-publication. 

I am still trying to learn to use InDesign. 

Sleepless in Fort Worth

Couldn’t sleep. Decided to participate in a Twitter writing contest. You could have up to three entries based on one of ten story ideas. Each must be tagged to gain their attention. 

My three:
1. Tell the story of a scar, whether a physical scar or emotional one.

It was a crevasse more than a scratch. She shone her light within, but the blackness swallowed all. When would she forgive her past? @write_practice

6. Your character’s deepest fear is holding his or her relationship OR career back.

You can really only put it off a few days. You have fought it for years, woman, but face it, you are going to be a mother. @write_practice 

9. Your character is on a journey. However, they are interrupted by a natural disaster OR an accident.

She had never felt so free climbing the steps in a tower where so many had come before. Then she was entombed by the quake. @write_practice

The blog post from The Write Practice was no lie. It really forces you to find the perfect word and to cut out the extraneous. What fun!

2015 Final Update

Acceptances:

poeticdiversity (online Los Angeles Litzine) has accepted:

Poems

“Weather Madness” – written in May 2015, inspired by the crazy storms in Austin that weekend and driving home through the back country.  Published in their November 2015 edition, which can be found here: Weather Madness by Hattie Quinn

“Rejoice Fifteen” – written in 2013, when I had once again opened my heart.  To be published in their April 2016 issue.

Short Fiction

“Death on a Sunny Day” – written in 2013 on a 33-hour train ride from San Diego to Portland, OR, when I was both coming down from a beautiful weekend in Sacramento with dear friends, participating in a train bound tribute to Ernest Hemingway, and drinking an adult beverage inspired by both Hemingway and the weekend with friends, which I created in their honor, and still enjoy to this day (except that I am not drinking right now because I am 33 weeks pregnant, but you know what I mean.  This will also be featured in their April 2016 issue.

Rejected:

“Longing” – 2013 freeform poem.

Personal Accomplishments:

2015 (since my last post in September):

  • Trip to Salt Lake City for a Meeting of the USGL Electoral College.
  • Trip to Atlanta to speak at the USGL Kaaba Colloquium Leadership seminar.
  • Participated in and coordinated multiple rites of passage.
  • Assembled an adult themed gift box, including knitted flogger, blindfold and cuffs, all from patterns modified by me.
  • Knitted an eyeglasses cord, a belt, two pumpkins, santa’s boot, a draft catcher inspired by Frosty the Snowman, a liberty cap (which I ripped out because I did not think it smurfy enough in  shape, and began a combo knit/fabric nightie.
  • Spoke at TOTOCON on the Intersection of BDSM and Spirituality.
  • Decided to have a baby with my fiancé.
  • Made my first scrapbook.
  • Attended a dear friend’s wedding.
  • Scheduled 2016 events for charity and handed over to replacement coordinator in such.
  • Nursed a sick kitty back to health.
  • Began the arduous process of preparing my house for a baby and a first visit by my parents and stepmother.
  • Began e-formatting of reprint of The Pelican.
  • Constructed Fall and Winter wreaths for my door with knitted items and seasonal crafts.

2016 so far

  • Diagnosed with gestational diabetes.  Modified diet to support  the growth of a healthy baby.
  • Continued nesting
  • Knitted a scarf to match the liberty cap I am in process of again kniting with added smurfiness.

Ambitious By Nature

Monthly updates were ambitious.  I would have to submit things every month to be able to update you and summer has been very busy.

Rejections:

  • Broken Worlds
  • Borderlands: Texas Poetry Review

No word:

  • Cosmopolitan.com

Submissions as of today:

Poetic Diversity-

  • “Weather Madness” Inspired by the recent rains and floods in Texas (2015).
  • “Rejoice Fifteen” A 15 line, 15 syllable per line love poem (2013).
  • “Longing” A free form poem of longing and desire (2013).
  • “Death on a Sunny Day” A short story I wrote while on the train back from NOTOCON IX, which also prompted the creation of a cocktail of the same name, which I will post with the tag recipes.

Personal Accomplishments:

  • Family Vacation in Colorado.
  • Assisted in installing pull switches on lighting in charity kitchen.
  • Participated in and coordinated multiple rites of passage.
  • Prepared 15 lbs of homemade Ras El-Hanout spice blend for gifting.
  • Designed, solicited item donations, and assembled conference gift boxes.
  • Catered and hostessed a a feast for the First Night of the Prophet and His Bride.
  • Attended Summer Board Meeting and Biennial National Conference.
  • Became officially engaged.
  • Planned Q4 events for charity and trained replacement coordinator in such.
  • Knitted catnip mouse with chair harness to keep in place for optimum play time.

Submissions

I will be updating you on a monthly basis regarding the submissions I have made and any acceptances or rejections I have received.  I will give you a bit extra this time, as I am playing catch up.

In March, I submitted and had privately published in the memorial membership newsletter The Lifted Lance:

  • “For Nu!” A poem written in 2002  for a former lover and dear friend who recently passed away.
  • “The Loving Crone” A photograph taken of said friend in 2013 at her retreat in Asheville, NC.

In April, I submitted nothing because I am a slacker.  Hence I need this blog to help me be accountable.  I did, however, outline several upcoming pieces.

In May, I submitted and am waiting to hear back from:

Cosompolitan.com –

  • “Take Your Time” An essay on attending college, my experience, and my opinions thereon.

“Broken Worlds” Anthology from A Murder of Storytellers –

  • “Death on a Sunny Day” A short story I wrote while on the train back from NOTOCON IX, which also prompted the creation of a cocktail of the same name, which I will post with the tag recipes.

Borderlands: Texas Poetry Review –

  • “Weather Madness” Inspired by the recent rains and floods in Texas (2015).
  • “Rejoice Fifteen” A 15 line, 15 syllable per line love poem (2013).
  • “Longing” A free form poem of longing and desire (2013).
  • “The Wild Wind” A poetic invocation to Oya to wreak Her particular style of havoc in my life (2003).  She did.  It worked.  Thank you, Lady.
  • “For Nu!” A poem written in 2002  for a former lover and dear friend who recently passed away.

Let us see if we can do even more in June!

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